Life is Full of Obstacle Illusions

Ooopsie! It turns out that my results are already out…Imah told me that this evening! WHOA!

So I checked it already and…I reached my minimum target which is cgpa 2.67. I’m totally relieved that I had at least reach that goal but I know secretly that I COULD’VE DONE BETTER…So I just hope that I wouldn’t have to repeat any classes…especially maths and c++. All in all it’s pretty good I think for people of my intelligence coz I really thought that I’m doomed from the start and I probably just get 1.00 in cgpa. But it turned out to be 2.67 which is way better thatn 1.00 so thank you God!

I’m blabbering and I don’t know why!

I just realised that I got just a week left to enjoy my holidays. Which is sad and depressing just to think about it. And my exam result that I’ve been waiting for all this while is finally gonna be announced probably tomorrow…sigh…

Come to think of it, I think I never achieve a single goal that I’ve sworn to do before the long holiday. For example, I don’t know how to drive yet, I didn’t lose any damn weight, I didn’t study next semester’s subjects, didn’t play any guitar and didn’t start on my magazine scrapbook project. HYmmmm what to do? I think that’s basically what happen if you planned too much…

This is Tonight, Tonight by Smashing Pumpkins

Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave
Without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change, the less you feel

Believe
Believe in me
Believe... BELIEVE

That life can change
That you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same
We're different tonight

Tonight, so bright
Tonight, tonight

And you know you're never sure
But you're sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And your embers never fade
In your city by the lake
The place where you were born.

Believe
Believe in me
Believe... BELIEVE

In the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight

Tonight, so bright
Tonight

We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight.
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as i believe in you...

Tonight
Tonight, tonight
Tonight, Tonight

So I just don't know what to write about...why not put some nice song lyrics here. Anyways my bro and I are talking again...hehe I always knew it wouldn't take long.

The reason for my lack of blog entries these days is because my life is very boring. I think my life in uni is boring, but this is worst. Nothing going on in my life. It’s like living on auto-pilot. Wake up, shower, breakfast, watch tv, lunch, watch tv, surf internet, dinner, watch tv, sleep. Everyday is the same. At least in Uni I can talk about my crappy class and how dumb I am. But now? What’s left to talk about without being a day-logger. How boring.

And I just have a fight with my bro. I don’t think I wanna talk to him ever again.

Guys, I think I will not be able to post the interview laa…it’s too damn long and I’m too lazy to jot down. Here’s just the points in the interview:

• MCR is growing
• Gerard felt old and wrote the song Teenagers as what he feels now that he’s old and not a teenager anymore.
• Frank actually don’t eat cheese and meat! lol.
• Gerard’s favorite cheese is cheddar and fav meat (lol) is salami.

And a lot more, but I’m lazy so I wont write. And who cares? Haha who am I kidding…no one is interested anyways.

Bye.

HEy hey hey…I really forgot to update anything since I finished all my exams. Really glad its over and I’m now enjoyong my holidays for like three days now. And sweeeet.

I have no idea right now of what else to write about. So I will just wait for that sudden burst of idea…coz right now I had writer’s block. Sorry…

And I will transcript all the interviews…I mean the full interview of MCR at Kerrang Radio soon. Okay…mmmkay…whatever… XD

It has taken me awhile to realize this:

I hate coffee, but I love coffee too. I seem to turn the hate into love whenever I have exams or if I’m depressed. I’m drinking one right now. Coz I have a paper tomorrow. My last paper! Hmm hello coffee!

I dunno. I think coffee taste like crap on normal days, but when exams came by, coffee tasted sooooo fuckin’ good, man! It tastes really good and I can actually understand all those caffeine freaks out there…

Yay for coffee! xD

Everytime it rains I look into the sky. I wonder what’s so great about sunshine? Hey everybody lives and everybody dies. And no one’s gonna love you like I do…When it is getting dark, I never need a match. I never needed light to see you. You thought I’d disappear, but I was always here. I could never get that far from you.

So I misunderstand, and been misunderstood. So love me because you can, and not because you should…

Take it as it comes…and take me as I am. I’m never was a good impostor. Well I know how to dream…but I don’t know where I stand. I’m willing to admit I try too hard. Stop playing with my heart, I’m waiting by the phone. I’m afraid to be myself and being alone.

Every time it rains I know it’s great to be alive.

I really like today’s exam paper! Weeeee~~^^ pesta buih! It’s Kemahiran Maklumat dan Komunikasi or in english " Information Science and Communication".

It’s just a reading subject, and there’s some tips given my my classmate. And guess what? Most of what she said gonna come out really came out!!!! In the paper! Amazing….this is actually the first time I felt like I got something to write about in my answer sheet! Ahhhh! Ohhh…I feel like dancing and eating fried chicken and singing and…ahhh everything ah. Best gler!

Lots of My Chemical Romance’s fans even considered them to be emo. WTF? MCR is not emo, guys. Come on. They’re DEATH METAL…they once said that. And I recently heard Kerrang radio’s interview with MCR on the net and they explained it! I’m really excited to hear it. Here I wrote it all down for you guys to read…please read, okay? I played this for like 20 times and heard Gerard’s voice sooo many times, just to put it in here. Hey this is rare, you know? It’s very recent, 6th Nov 2006… Okay here goes:

DJ:Your fans are really, really hardcore. Who try to distinguish you as emo.

Gerard: Right.

DJ: And to get into the emo area is a whole, you know, pandora’s box. You don’t wanna open that box because you don’t need that shit in your life, you know what I mean?

Gerard: Yeah, it’s uh, it’s like, the funny thing about the emo tag is that we actually never get the benefit of being an emo band in the beginning because we weren’t. We didn’t fit in with that, so we didn’t get booked on shows, we didn’t get tours…umm nobody would like listening to our record to play, I mean there was one kid, Maria who played our record, and uh, nobody interested in us because we were…different. Um at least promoters and stuff. There were kids interested in us. So then years later to be lumped in with something you actually actively faught against, or tried not to be a part of, is ironic. You know?

DJ: Coz, Okay, there’s essentially an emo anthem you know, everything’s really bad in the world, you know what I mean?

Frank: I guess more of a personal anthem. I don’t know if not being perfectly fine is just a theme in one demografic of kids who listen to one type of music. I mean everybody in this world is not okay sometimes.

Gerard: To me that song is a declaration of saying, you know, we’re not gonna put something out there to a mass amount of people that simply saying that something is totally awesome, because, like, we’ve met so many kids along the way, we know it’s not awesome. We know there’s kids getting depressed, we know how they feel in highschool. We know what they’re going through. And they’re not even just, uh they’re teenagers and there’s actually people in their 20’s jobless and stuff like that. That’s just exactly more of what we’re seeing.

Frank: That’s what we were.

Gerard: Yeah, that’s what we were. Without jobs.

Hm that’s only a part of the interview. It’s kinda long…maybe if my exam’s over, I’ll post the full version of it. Hope that clear things up a little.

xoxo nashie