Life is Full of Obstacle Illusions

The reason for my lack of blog entries these days is because my life is very boring. I think my life in uni is boring, but this is worst. Nothing going on in my life. It’s like living on auto-pilot. Wake up, shower, breakfast, watch tv, lunch, watch tv, surf internet, dinner, watch tv, sleep. Everyday is the same. At least in Uni I can talk about my crappy class and how dumb I am. But now? What’s left to talk about without being a day-logger. How boring.

And I just have a fight with my bro. I don’t think I wanna talk to him ever again.

Guys, I think I will not be able to post the interview laa…it’s too damn long and I’m too lazy to jot down. Here’s just the points in the interview:

• MCR is growing
• Gerard felt old and wrote the song Teenagers as what he feels now that he’s old and not a teenager anymore.
• Frank actually don’t eat cheese and meat! lol.
• Gerard’s favorite cheese is cheddar and fav meat (lol) is salami.

And a lot more, but I’m lazy so I wont write. And who cares? Haha who am I kidding…no one is interested anyways.

Bye.

HEy hey hey…I really forgot to update anything since I finished all my exams. Really glad its over and I’m now enjoyong my holidays for like three days now. And sweeeet.

I have no idea right now of what else to write about. So I will just wait for that sudden burst of idea…coz right now I had writer’s block. Sorry…

And I will transcript all the interviews…I mean the full interview of MCR at Kerrang Radio soon. Okay…mmmkay…whatever… XD

It has taken me awhile to realize this:

I hate coffee, but I love coffee too. I seem to turn the hate into love whenever I have exams or if I’m depressed. I’m drinking one right now. Coz I have a paper tomorrow. My last paper! Hmm hello coffee!

I dunno. I think coffee taste like crap on normal days, but when exams came by, coffee tasted sooooo fuckin’ good, man! It tastes really good and I can actually understand all those caffeine freaks out there…

Yay for coffee! xD

Everytime it rains I look into the sky. I wonder what’s so great about sunshine? Hey everybody lives and everybody dies. And no one’s gonna love you like I do…When it is getting dark, I never need a match. I never needed light to see you. You thought I’d disappear, but I was always here. I could never get that far from you.

So I misunderstand, and been misunderstood. So love me because you can, and not because you should…

Take it as it comes…and take me as I am. I’m never was a good impostor. Well I know how to dream…but I don’t know where I stand. I’m willing to admit I try too hard. Stop playing with my heart, I’m waiting by the phone. I’m afraid to be myself and being alone.

Every time it rains I know it’s great to be alive.

I really like today’s exam paper! Weeeee~~^^ pesta buih! It’s Kemahiran Maklumat dan Komunikasi or in english " Information Science and Communication".

It’s just a reading subject, and there’s some tips given my my classmate. And guess what? Most of what she said gonna come out really came out!!!! In the paper! Amazing….this is actually the first time I felt like I got something to write about in my answer sheet! Ahhhh! Ohhh…I feel like dancing and eating fried chicken and singing and…ahhh everything ah. Best gler!

Lots of My Chemical Romance’s fans even considered them to be emo. WTF? MCR is not emo, guys. Come on. They’re DEATH METAL…they once said that. And I recently heard Kerrang radio’s interview with MCR on the net and they explained it! I’m really excited to hear it. Here I wrote it all down for you guys to read…please read, okay? I played this for like 20 times and heard Gerard’s voice sooo many times, just to put it in here. Hey this is rare, you know? It’s very recent, 6th Nov 2006… Okay here goes:

DJ:Your fans are really, really hardcore. Who try to distinguish you as emo.

Gerard: Right.

DJ: And to get into the emo area is a whole, you know, pandora’s box. You don’t wanna open that box because you don’t need that shit in your life, you know what I mean?

Gerard: Yeah, it’s uh, it’s like, the funny thing about the emo tag is that we actually never get the benefit of being an emo band in the beginning because we weren’t. We didn’t fit in with that, so we didn’t get booked on shows, we didn’t get tours…umm nobody would like listening to our record to play, I mean there was one kid, Maria who played our record, and uh, nobody interested in us because we were…different. Um at least promoters and stuff. There were kids interested in us. So then years later to be lumped in with something you actually actively faught against, or tried not to be a part of, is ironic. You know?

DJ: Coz, Okay, there’s essentially an emo anthem you know, everything’s really bad in the world, you know what I mean?

Frank: I guess more of a personal anthem. I don’t know if not being perfectly fine is just a theme in one demografic of kids who listen to one type of music. I mean everybody in this world is not okay sometimes.

Gerard: To me that song is a declaration of saying, you know, we’re not gonna put something out there to a mass amount of people that simply saying that something is totally awesome, because, like, we’ve met so many kids along the way, we know it’s not awesome. We know there’s kids getting depressed, we know how they feel in highschool. We know what they’re going through. And they’re not even just, uh they’re teenagers and there’s actually people in their 20’s jobless and stuff like that. That’s just exactly more of what we’re seeing.

Frank: That’s what we were.

Gerard: Yeah, that’s what we were. Without jobs.

Hm that’s only a part of the interview. It’s kinda long…maybe if my exam’s over, I’ll post the full version of it. Hope that clear things up a little.

xoxo nashie

I’m getting very mad considering the amount of people criticizing emo kids around the world as fags and wrist cutting bitches. I just wanna yell at them saying what’s really wrong about that?! They’re not even harming you or get together to form a masacre or go around killing people, for God’s sake! Well I’m not an emo for once, coz I don’t like to label people. Anyway, all those emo haters: Do you not once in your life feeling sad? Or lost you purpose in life? Have you not lost someone precious? Well you’re gonna eventually someday…and maybe realize that you are a fucking emo too. I think that’s just not right categorizing people just easily like that. So will you call you’re mum an emo just coz she’s always cries when watching soppy movies or always nagging you?! Sadness and feeling depressed is just emotions…every human has emotions. Does that mean that human being is pathetic and EMO?

So if you don’t like someone who cuts wrist or suicidal, just shut the fuck up and stop bashing them! Gosh…I bet you felt like God after mocking them…after all, what you said will leave them lifeless and you’re at a club dancing the night away. Well you know what? It’s you who’s wasting away! Coz all you care about is others…you criticize others to make you feel better. Which is way lower than shit.

And now I’ve discovered back my fascination about 80’s music. Last night I dug up a huge amount of 80’s music on youtube…you know I’m a huge fan of youtube! I searched Heart, Journey, Rolling Stones, Def Leppard and Kate Bush. Wow I never knew that youtube has a big collections of old stuff! I wish this is the 80’s again. Those days are so carefree and rockin’! No one really cared about anything. Real fun. Big hair, crazy outfits and make-up…and most importantly: the MUSIC! Rockin’ xDDDDDD

And introducing: Kate Bush with the song Running Up That Hill!

Kate Bush - Running up That Hill (A Deal With God)

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Hey I’ve recently discovered that Tori Amos is actually a poser. Well, she’s not 100% original, that is. I found out about it after watching Kate Bush on youtube…and it’s actually the first time I saw Kate Bush performs. And on piano. And she’s so dramatic on the piano. Just like Tori; or more likely Tori is just like Kate Bush. FYI Kate Bush is a British singer who is famous since 1978…but she isn’t very big in the US. And this isn’t the first time I heard about her either. She’s on my Power Ballads CD doing the duet with Peter Gabriel in "Don’t Give Up". And Tori actually ripped her style! I can’t believe it myself, but it’s true.

Well, now I still love Tori Amos immensely…but I’m a little disappointed lah. But I think, she’s just human. Makes mistake. And maybe I’ll rip her style too if I were to be a musician someday…hehe yeah right. Maybe if the music industry in Malaysia stop being so pathetic and start to appreciate REAL MUSIC and REAL MUSICIANS!